I do not feel guilty for not blogging lately. There’s been a lot going on. It’s summer, and summer is meant to be savored in the North. Besides, I’m not sure much can beat my last post… nope, I cannot think of anything.
Truly, there is a huge temptation to stop this blog. I am in a little quandry here, and I thought I would share with anyone who reads.
I love to write. It’s fun. Writing reports in college is something I miss. Yeah, I’m sick, I know. I’ve been praying about having a writing ministry, and I have been using my blog (in a small way) to test the waters. But I am running into a few problems:
1. Time – My first priority is to God, and second is my family. Blogging doesn’t necessarily take a huge chunk of my life. Hardly any, actually. But I battle the thought that right now is not the season of life for me to pursue this. Yet I know lots of moms who do, who have more little kids than me.
2. My Stomach – When you share your heart, you expose yourself to others. And people are not always kind. They nit-pick. They ridicule. They judge your motives. They miss your points. They criticize. I do not like conflict very much, and would prefer to be at peace with all men. In just the little bit of flack I have gotten, it makes me queasy. I don’t like it when people think something about me that is not true, and especially when they base it on something I wrote. I let it roll off my back to an extent, but hurtful comments leave a permanent mark. So the question comes, “Do I have the constitution for this?” I am still searching that out.
3. Discipline – It goes along with time. If I am going to blog, I really ought to be writing more. It isn’t fair to anyone who might read this that posts are so sporadic. And this is a very random blog, perhaps it should have more of a point to it.
There’s a lot that I have been thinking about. And it might take awhile longer. So maybe we should make an appointment for another entry: perhaps August 1. I’ll mark it on the calendar, and let you know what I have decided.